I was just recollecting and reminiscing on what I was doing this time last year. I was busy getting ready for a wedding because on the 6th of September 2007 I got married to Fnertin Schmo. Fnertin was the gorean Ubar of Port Victoria. He was a notorious bad boy and unbalanced demented mentalist whom I had been forewarned to steer clear of and whom I had a long verbal conflict with. In spite of his reputation for being an appalling gorean Ubar and us having an exclusive battle of the sexes (that I would win because I am brilliant), we decided that we would get hitched. I didn't see a terrible person. I saw was someone who I thought was a lot of fun. Does this mean I was more stealthy than him (oh yes) or does it mean I was as nuts as him?

Sadly, the marriage wasn’t to last, and it ended very abruptly before Christmas. In spite of the fact that we had a bit of drama and muted each other a bit, and he vowed he wouldn’t converse with me ever never again. He soon forgave me and we are now friends-Well for the moment anyway.

A lot of people didn’t get to encounter Fnertin and those who did, couldn’t quite work out why I was with him as we both had very dissimilar second lives . I will always carry the fond memories of the first night he and Rawly met each other. It was a night when I genuinely was panicking because I knew that Rawly was already appalled that I wasn’t getting spliced with Philip linden, the wedding was a bit hasty as we had only just got engaged on the 1st of September and the choice of residence that I was going to be living in would at most look nice if it was on fire.

Fnertin spent the entire time trying to intimidate Rawly. Rawly spent the entire time scrutinizing his castle and telling me it was a mess. We got hitched and it has got to be one of the funniest most significant nights of my second life.
In spite of the marriage only surviving about 3 months, I have realised that it survived longer than most. The average sl coupling only lasts about 5 days, and it always starts with a whirlwind love affair and finishes up in a bitter duel and the mute button always gets pressed. It amazes me that a lot of people don’t speak to their ex partners and spouses in sl. Is it acceptable that we should have the ability to lacerate all connections with these people who where at one time exceptional enough for us to draw breath with them or marry?

I met someone the other day while out shopping, he wasn’t single. He was so captured with me that he decided to flirt with me anyway. He was extremely flabbergasted that I wasn’t taken, and that I was single. It immediately made me think about my sl love life and why I was single. Was i not meeting enough men? Was I hanging out in clubs that had a rainbow flag over the door, a little too much?

I adore the company of men-God knows I have spent a lot of my sl dancing on slow dance 7 with them. I appear to some people to spend all my time searching for the unique second life guy . The flawless one. The one who is in sl for the escapades and not to locate a companion for his rl. Am I the eternal optimist or am I insane? Is there actually a guy in second life who isn’t gay and who isn’t in this place to find a gf?

I am not convinced that all that "real life" stuff can actually work, but I guess it all pivots on what you came to sl for. I came to make a million dollars like Anshe Chung. I remained for the laugh when the money manufacturing thing didn’t work, and I will continue to remain for the laughs.

Second life is beginning to irritate me because a lot of people are enlisting thinking it's an online virtual dating service. Somewhere to come to locate a partner for rl. Why can't people just come here like we all used to at the start?

For all the guys who ponder why I am single it's simply like this, I have a high opinion of myself. I am excessively particular and I desire my man to be like my finest male friends if not better, even though I am not certain that is possible. Oh and he must have a set of balls.At this phase in my second life, I don’t think its important to have a partner, and I couldn't use someone just so I wouldn't be single. I am delighted to be in the clubs with the rainbow flag over the door. I am happy to be with the guys who love my shoes and like to joke with me until the wee small hours of the morning and not have to embarrass myself looking stupid on sex balls. Yes, everyone looks stupid on the sex balls......

Lots of Love

Natalie xx